Anxiety.....because it matters a lot to me?

Recently, I noticed that my anxiety towards my future career path of teaching has been increasing. Thoughts are constantly running through my mind. QUestion tags have been flying in and out the window.

1. Are you sure you have the grammar rules and other content knowledge at your finger tips?
2. Are you prepared for empty periods or time which you need to fill up with fillers?
3. Have you read up on the different development stages of the children?
4. What happens when the students do not behave? Are you prepared to deal with such incidents? Do you keep at least a few ideas on hand?
5. What is the image that you want to project to the class?
6. What are the rules that you want to establish in the class?
7. Where is the list of things that you need to note prior to term commencement?
8. What are your views towards teaching? What is your philosophy like?
9. When observing your mentors, which aspects would you pay attention to?
10. How do we connnect with the pupils? What are the signs that we have to take note of to be sure that we can be there to help them when they need assistance?
11. How can I send the message to them that they have to power to achieve as long as they believe in themselves and try hard enough?
12. How can I convince them that education will being them long-term benefits?
13. How can I motivate them to learn?

There are just so many concerns that I have that I have no idea where to begin. I want to learn as much as I can during teacher training. I want to build my capability such that I can be a more effective and efficient teacher so that I can bring the joy of learning to the children.

Somehow, I am beginning to feel that every single thought matters a lot to me. I breathe, eat and sleep on thoughts of teaching and education and children development. It has enveloped me. It has consumed me. It has also started my engine. It gave me the inspiration and power to look into my inner self and find clarity.

I need to work on it. I need to do what I can to prepare myself. Although there is so much I can do, I will try to do whatever I can.Afterall, it may be about me. It boils down to what makes me happy. Seeing the smiles on their faces and knowing that they have a connection with me. Knowing that they are slowly bringing their potential out of themselves to face the challenges of the future. That is what brings warmth and joy to my heart.