Clarissa said this to me, " You are so lucky to have the chance to live in Europe. Hence, you have an alternative for comparison. And this is giving you a little bit of stress."
It is true. Having lived in Europe for a while, I have unconsciously formed the habit of comparing the life in Singapore to the life in Europe, or Denmark in specific. While Copenhagen does not have that much variety of food or shopping malls, there is contentment and a good pace of life. Singapore has so much variety to offer, but it lacks the environment which encourages peace, maturity and tolerance.
I am facing the challenge of trying to get used to the life in Singapore. The way people bahave, they expectations that people have, the unspoken rules in public and so on. Suddenly, everything has become foreign to me. I have to learn everything from pit bottom.
The only consolation perhaps is that my ties with Daphne and Nic is still going strong. We are still able to chat and have fun like before. They provide me with a comfort net which holds me and prevents me from falling into a crevasse of depression, dear and negativity.
Honestly, I have fear. Fear that I would not be able to accept the kind of life here. Fear that I would not be able to follow up with the pace of life here. Fear that depression would engulf me in its fiery flames and turn me into ash.
I know that I would have to fight these thoughts and emotions. The question is how to do it and do it right. I hope that somehow, I would be able to find the way.
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