I am so afraid...

Dear Lord

I am so afraid that I want to run to a corner and just hide there forever. I am afraid. I do not want to make false declaration. But he just would not accept my position and accuses me of being selfish. Legally, we would be considered married. I know that no matter how hard I try to delay the process, it would just come to me one day. Our parents would have to meet. There is no denial. What should I do? I really do not want to make false declarations. That is not right. It is wrong. Why can't we just be honest with our parents? Why? I want him to be happy. But I want us to lead an honest life together too. Is it wrong?

Oh Lord! Please tell me what I should do. Please help me!

Amen.