Anger and Irritation

The past few days have been filled with body ache and other physical discomfort. And this is on top of the anger that I have been experiencing. I have to get it out somehow.

WHo do they think they are? Walk into my life and command me to act the way that they expect? Fucking Intruders!!!!

You all have never been in my life. So what gives you the right to just come in and tell me what to do and how to behave? YOu have no right to take away my freedom and happiness. There is nothing between us except for the biological connection. That is all. Nothing else!!!

What you all say is simply a pack of lies which are not justified at all.

There has been no relationship built. It is only when you are so close to death that you start to worry that there will be no one to see to your funeral needs. YOu are all so fucking selfish....

I am not your slave!!!!!I am not one of the statistics which show how successful you are at reproduction.

Just leave me alone and let me get on with my life!!!! I have a loving husband and a safe home now. Get away from me, you Satan! Do not try to take anything away from me.

Dear Lord

You teach me to love unconditionally, but I have difficulty doing that. I do not hate them but I do not love them either. I simply do not want to have anything to do with them. Please guide me , Lord. Please teach me how to deal with my emotions and chain of thoughts. I feel offended when they simply waltz in and command me to act according to the way they want. I do not want to conform without any logical reasoning or justification. I see no meaning in it.

THey have not been part of my life. Now, they expect to just walk in and make me one of their pawns and manipulate me to derive that bit of pleasure. There is no meaning, no sense in this. I hate to conform when I do not make any sense out of the situation.

i am made of flesh and blood and I do have my own mind too. They simply do not see this. I am upset at this fact that they do not respect my freedom of choice. I choose not to be associated with them. I choose to live the life that I now lead. I choose the set of beliefs and values which I feel comfortable with. But they are always trying to impose their will on me. I am not their slave.

Please Lord, Please teach me how to deal with this. Please make them go away. I want to live my life with Matt and create our own world where there is no pain, no hatred, no fear, only love, peace and security.

In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit, Amen.