Amadeus

Out of boredom and curiosity perhaps, I checked out the website of Amadeus. I remember the times I spent singing. Singing was really emotional for me. I loved the singing. I could at the very least bring out my own emotions when I sang.

Today, I look back at the changes to the choir. There are still quite a number of people from the senior batches. WHenver I look at them, I am always in awe. In awe of their passion for singing. In awe of their aggressiveness. WHenever I sang with them, singing always ends up very stressful for me. Perhaps their overwhelming passion for music and singing has scared me away. I started off with a relatively audible voice to a voice which is small and perhaps almost invisible. Somehow, they made me feel inferior. Or, I allowed them to make me feel inferior. I was not the perfectionist kind of person in the past. This may be the reason why I gradually left the choir. Music, choir music in this case, is pursued with passion and the ultimate aim of perfection. All notes have to be sung to the perfect pitch, sung to the correct pronunciation and the appropriate expression.

Nevertheless, I never regretted my decision to join the choir. THis decision gave me memories, friends, and the opportunities to open my eyes to a world wider than just Singapore. Come to think of it, without Amadeus and the chance to sing overseas, I probably would not have dared to venture overseas. I may just be living life blindly, had it not been for Amadeus.