Self-regulated learning. This is an area in which we are reading at this point in time in the Education Psychology Module. I find it interesting. It explains how a person and improve or take a step backward simply by thinking or making comments to oneself. Applying this theory to myself, I have no idea if I am still standing at the same spot or have progressed forward.
My efforts and time invested into studying makes me wonder. I wonder why. Everyone around me is seeking to just make it through the system, while I aim to come out the top of the cohort. Everyone around me do not seem to take lessons and readings seriously. They try to do what they can and then pray and hope that things go their way. BUt I aim for perfection. I complete all my readings. I try to give the best quality work possible. Why?
A sense of insecurity? The need to achieve results? The fear of being looked down upon? The want to give the best to my students next time so that they do not go through life as I have had gone through for the past quarter of a century? To prove that I am not useless?
Perhaps it is a mischung of these reasons which propel me. But there is no one to converse with me at this level, of course, other than the tutors and lecturers. But they are nto always there. This lack of intellectual conversations with people to hear their interesting points of view is almost killing me. I feel deprived. Most of my friends have other areas of concerns which take their attention away from intellectual topics. So here I am, hoping to develop my intellectual capability faced with an empty arena. Well, we are all at different platforms at different times of our lives. Maybe it is time I take a break too?
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