I read Jasmin's blog today. There was only one entry. It was a simple and short one describing her last few days in school. Amidst the expressions, I could sense that the Jas I knew is still there. Somewhere. She still loves children. She enjoys her work. And like me, she is emotional. She is the more creative kind of person as compared to me. I tend to be more serious and straight while she tends to be more mischievous and fun-loving. Both of us have been through different experiences, hence shaping our extreme views towards life. Since young, she has this love for children. Me on the other hand, did not like them till not so long ago. GUess it is because I grew up in a family where emotions and love are extremely scarce. Jas has a family who is always supportive and there for her. This could be one reason why she was never able to understand my emotions and certain views towards life. I do not blame her. Instead, I am afriad of letting her know me too well. While I love to get to know people and allow people to know me, I still draw a line of boundary at times to protect myself from getting hurt or put down. Perhaps my level of self-esteem is still not too high. Or perhaps, I am afraid of being hurt....
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