Feelings of joy and love

The exams are over. The children are now enjoying themselves. As for me, I am still slogging away. Previously, I was slogging over their homework and exams. Now, I am working my butt off to arrange talks and fun activities for them. During this time, I have to run up and down the school many times over in a day to make sure that things are running smoothly. P6 teachers are still not getting a break yet, at least for me.

But when I saw how much they were enjoying themselves, I come home feeling grateful. We went to West Coast Park last week. Despite the rain, the children were running around, playing on the swings and structures without any reservations. Despite the perspiration and sand all over their bodies, their mouths were always open, of course not with food in them. I thank God for these wonderful children. They are of good character, innocent, caring, loving, helpful and so lovable.

I contrast the relationship that we had for the past two years. Ever since I took them, I set very strict standards and rules. I demanded order and results. When they did not perform up to standard, I berated them till they labelled me as a 'Tigeress". I guess they probably cursed and swore when I really screamed at them, but they did not make it known to me.

Now, things are so different. I do not have to scold them because they have learnt how to behave themselves well, most of the time. They have learnt to listen when necessary and play when the time is right. They have put in the best for their exams. I demand results, but what I value more, is the attitude that they have. It is the process and attitude which matters, not the results. While not everyone will do well, what is important is that they have put in the effort. I always believed that whatever we do, we must not regret our decisions and accept the consequences.

These days, I thank the Lord so much more for the love that He has showered on me. I thank the Lord for blessing me with a wonderful hubby who has been supporting me all this time. I thank the Lord for giving me the strength and perseverance to walk these 2 years with the children. I thank the Lord for these wonderful creations of Life.

Amen.