AMEC

A practising musician....that is the only way one can truly understand the process and life of people who try to perfect their art and talent while living in an extremely practical world here. As much as we like to to appreciate art and music, we do have to acknowledge that it is difficult to make a living here where I live in. People have such pragmatic mindsets that they no longer are open to the different aspects of the beauty of music.

Someone said this. "In our system, we do not expect each and everyone of our music students to be performing musicians. But, at the very least, they need to exude that aura of musicianship."

It is true. Other than being extremely talented, one needs the opportunity at the right time and right place to realise one's dream of being a musician. One needs to be very blessed.

Perhaps I will not be a musician. But I can still enjoy music through my hard work on the keyboard and sight-reading. Now that I have my lovely hubby to share this joy with me, it makes music even more meaningful and beautiful. Both of us are starting, considering the fact that he has just started his music lessons and my fingers have left the keyboard for more than ten years. But it is all the more wonderful because we are on this learning journey together. Together, just like our relationship, we work hard at it to bring it to perfection. Together, we help each other overcome obstacles and we try to understand each other's challenges. I really think that it is wonderful. These are memories which are unique to the both of us as time passes by in such a fluid manner that we hardly realise that.

A Traffic Junction

I guess I have arrived at a Traffic Junction where the lights have turned red. I have to stop and wait. While waiting, I ask myself if I had fulfilled my responsibilities? Well, in some aspects, I have done well, in some aspects, not so well.

And I question if it is because I had been lazy or if I had made some bad decisions. Well, I have not been lazy, I can say that for sure. As for bad decisions, maybe? I doubt so. That leads me to ask if there were some factors or conditions which were out of my control.

My Lord knows how hard I have tried both in school and at home. I am constantly pushing myself although I know that I have to strike a balance somewhere.

Dear Lord,

You know what I think. You know how hard I have tried to be a good teacher and a good wife/partner/friend. I will still continue to try to be the best that I can be. I only pray that you guide me and comfort me and give me the strength to carry on when there seems to be only darkness ahead. Thank you , dear Lord, for all the blessings that you have showered upon me. Born a sinner, I have been cleansed by your grace and with this, I am grateful.

Teach me to listen to you, dear Lord, in all ways possible. Guide me and help me be your tool of peace, love and joy.

In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit, Amen.

A bruise on my wrist

I now have a large bruise on my wrist....it hurts especially when i use my right hand very often. The actions of a particular pupil of mine made me so angry that I screamed my top off and banged the table so many times so hard that I caused a bruise to develop.

Matt said that I should not have over-reacted. Well, I wish I could.

I sometimes wonder why some people exist for no reason at all. They do not conform to society. Neither are they responsible for themselves....They are just like rotten apples, there to rot and give off a stench which irks others...

No matter what others do to help them, they simply do not care. And I really hate that attitude, especially when it comes to learning.

Well, so I am the only one suffering while that person goes on his ways. Am I not stupid?

Matt playing the piano

I think about yesterday. Matt was in the small tiny room learning how to play the piano from his teacher. It was such a beautiful sight and the feeling was wonderful simply observing my hubby picking up a skill. I dream of the days ahead when both of us can play the piano together and enjoy the process of making music. It has been a while since I played the piano. My fingers are probably quite stiff now. But I hope and pray that one day, I will be able to play the piano well enough again. I simply love playing the piano. But as days go by without someone to share the passion with me, I slipped away from it. Now, Matt is here to share the joy with me!

Ein klavier

Matt hat uns ein neues Klavier gekauft. Ich bin sehr glücklich. Das Klavier kommt am nächsten Samstag. Matt hat schon einmal in die Musikschule gegangen. Ich hoffe, dass wir konnen zusammen Musik spielen. Das wäre sehr entspannend. Musik spielt eine wichtige Rolle in meinem Leben. Ohne Musik wird es sehr langweilig und Bedeutungslos. Ich wunsche nach die Gelegenheit noch einmal das Klavier gut zu spielen. Ich wunsche dass, ich könnte schöne Musik auf dem Klavier spielen. Ich hoffe, dass ich könnte meine Leidenschaft mit anderen Leuten teilen.

Vielen Dank Liebe Gott. Sie verstehen mich. Sie wissen was ich immer denken. Mit Ihnen habe ich die Sicherheit, dass alles gut wird. Sie haben alles geplant. Ich muss nur hart arbeiten und mich auf Sie verlassen.

The First 5 Weeks

School has started for 5 weeks already. For the first 5 weeks, I was like a crazy woman rushing to get things done....First, there was the CCA Carnival. Then CNY. Then AMEC. Amidst all these things happening, I had to catch up on my marking, especially compos and situational writings....

I haven't had enough sleep and that is why the dark circles below my eyes are becoming worse.

Things are getting more challenging as I am taking on more responsibilities and also building up my management skills at the same time. I am grateful for the opportunities given to me by my boss. Indirectly, it is God who is helping me. On the surface, it seems as though the management is developing me as the next liner. But I know that God is preparing me to do his work. All the opportunities that I have now is part of God's plan. And I know that all I have to do is to put in my best and learn as much as I can so that I can be God's instument to spread love all around.

Dear Lord,

Teach me to be patient. Teach me to be kind. Teach me to be grateful to all around me for good things and bad things which happen to me are all lessons to be learnt.

I give thanks to you Lord, for the wonderful husband who has been by my side all along supporting me all this while.

Thank you Lord.

Amen.