Memories

Hmmmmmm.....since my brain is not working so efficiently now, perhaps, I should do something else such as uploading some photos????

I wonder if my students will still remember me....or are they very overwhelmed with stressed and work now even when exams are over.......

I really miss some of them.....

Wen Xuan - THe very hardworking and quiet girl who gives you all her attention and does her work perfectly. THe one who always puts up her hand to answer your questions. The one who supports me quietly through her honest and innocent looks.

Andrew - The very quiet boy who works hard and tries to be the best he can be.

Xavier - the notti but clever and intelligent boy in class who knows when you are in a good mood and when you are about to explode.

Kai Ren - the one who always ventures out of boundaries. As much as I would love to have him in my class, I had to take care of others who belonged to the mainstream group.

Yu Hui - The one who loves my attention and always pretends not to know her work so that I can give her personal attention. I love her smile...so innocent and sweet.

Joshua - the boy with learning disability but who loves to tell u everything about his daily activities in a very slow manner....carefully choosing his words and slowly putting them into short sentences.

HOr Yah - The very quiet girl...sometimes mischievious...but gentle and harmless.....

Mei Yue - The active and confident girl who always wants to help the teacher carry things.

Chee Yong - The intelligent and out-spoken boy who has lots of empathy for others.

Ishwin - the irritating talking boy who thinks he knows everything under the sky...but look at the kind of work he gives and u noe how 'deep' he is.....

Samuel - the hyper-active boy with a sudden change in behaviour. I hope he is doing better now.

Juin Wei - the one whom I innocently and naively gave attention to which led to even worse behaviour. Judging from his family background, I cannot blame him...all he needs is love and attention...but i did not manage to get to know him and talk to him....

Ferrina - Another one of my star students...she is so much more matured than her brother in my p4 class. Sweet, helpful girl with lots of leadership potential.

Coey- The one who bravely took part in the Idol competition. She sings well....I love her on stage....

Oh Lord!

Please bless these children and keep them safe and happy. I pray that they will learn and do their best and grow up to be wonderful people. As much as i know that they will forget me in time to come, I still harbour this little glimmmer of hope that when they see me someday, they will remember me, at least my name......

Thank you Lord for hearing my prayer.

Amen.

Filled with joy and anticipation

The recent events that took place the past few days have left me feeling grateful, joyful and excited. Finally, I have the time to take a break and do things which I have not been able to catch up with. At the same time, I also had the chance to explore new areas such as looking at the products and services provided by bridal studios and exploring photography options overseas. I felt so cared for and so loved. Perhaps the comparision cannot be made to my early days. THe only thing that I know now is that I live for God and for him. Nothing else matters as much as the Lord and Matt. They showed me love in ways which I never thought possible.

I am still in a dillemma. THe Lord says that we should love one another. Yet, there are people whom I cannot even face or want to communicate with. HOw then can I love them? I am still searching for the answer.

For some people, the answer is easy because they have experienced the love from people they expected to receive the love. For me, things kinda went a little haywire. I never felt the love from my parents. One can say that it was because they did not know how to show it. Whatever the cause, the time is lost and cannot be replaced. But with Matt and Lord, I know that the journey has started and I do cherish the journey because every moment of it is filled with truth, honesty, love and more love....

The Lord has called me back to his side even after I have strayed for so long. Matt's love for me is forgiving and all-encompassing that makes me feel so protected.

With all the happenings around me and the thoughts going through my head, I seem to be slipping into a vacuum of peace and tranquility, where all stimulants have been eliminated and one is at peace with oneself.........

The moment my eyes were set on the gowns

It was an amazing experience. Am not sure if that is the word to describe my feels and emotions at that time.

We had been shopping around for bridal studios the past few weeks, taking things slowly. And so it happened. We walked into French Bridal. The process began with the introduction of the products and services provided. Somewhere along the way, Paulson, the designer whipped out an album for me to browse. I began smiling and grinning all the way right to the moment I left the shop and made my way home. I simply love the gowns. THey were simple, elegant and 'princess-like'. It then struck me that Paulson's designs are the manifestation of my vague ideas and thoughts. I never could pinpoint how I want my wedding gown to be like. All I know is that I want something elegant, simple and princessly. I almost cried when I saw the gowns. Never mind the fact that those gowns in the album were designed for fashion shows and could only be altered to fit someone with a waist size of 29. I know that Pauslon is the one who could help me with the gown design. It may not be as perfect as those that I have seen. But I know that he knows what I want. Any design which is similar to those in the album would have already made my dream come through!

All along, I never thought that the process of getting married could be so emotional. Perhaps I am already a very emotional person to start with.

We did some research on the web and found some negative as well as some positive remarks about that shop. Still, I know that my heart and mind is already set on them as my service provider. Somehow, there was this magical element which has hooked me up. There is always a risk when purchasing goods and services. I just hope that God will help to guide us along so that our process is a happy and memorable one. For once in my lifetime, I can finally be a 'princess'. For once, I can have my dream come through.

In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit.

Dear Lord

I want to give thanks for all that you have given and provided me. THank you also for the downs in my life for they have taught me new lessons and made me stronger. I would like to pray for your guidance and blessings as Matt and I go through the process of getting ready for our actual day.

I also pray that Matt would respond and hear your calling soon and seek your presence in our lives. Please guide us and bless us so that we can live your words and do your work.

Thank you, Lord for hearing my prayer.

In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit, Amen.

Feeling sick and tired

It is supposed to be a peaceful and well-deserved break for me after so many weeks of hard work. Yet here I am feeling so miserable. The viral infection has caused me to keep throwing up and has left me without a slightest bit of energy. Oh my God! I am feeling so tired and terrible! Ahhhhhh.......