Monday, November 14, 2005

I do not know how to feel...

DAphne wrote to me today and asked about what I am busy with. As usual, I told her about the German course that i am doing and the upcoming plans that I have. She also mentioned about Zerlinda getting married sometime next year. It is weird. I mean, I do not feel anything because it is none of my business. The only question that popped up in my head is,"How can I get out of it? Or how can I avoid all the stuff going on during that time? Can I not go?" I am not clse to her anyway and there is nothing in common between the two of us.

Ich hasse die Geräush!

Can I not invite any of my relatives for my wedding? Better still, can I not have the banquet? I just want a quiet peaceful dinner with my friends, people whom I can trust and be comfortable with. I hate all the other extras that have to be done. In the end, the bride is tired and does not enjoy the entire day at all.

One of my new found friends said that banquets are carried out to announce, or let other people know that you are attached/taken. What business is it of theirs? (Well, I guess, you can say that when you are not close to your relatives.)

You do not know half of the guests who turn up. You do not enjoy the time. You have to spend so much money on the preparations. (I could have done a couple of German Intensive courses and travel round Germany with that kind of money!!!!!! F*** these traditions!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Everyone puts on a mask during such occassions and pretend to be happy for the couple. THen behind them, the ugly side comes out. They criticize this and that and compare this and that. Hey, can't they just get a life? There are more important things in the world to bother about!!!!!!!!!

Ok. I am frustrated still because I can never understand and accept the rationale. Guess this is the only way to get the thoughts out of my mind!!!!!!

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