Band SYF 2008

I thought they did well. Kinda. I thought they were up to the standard. But perhaps not good enough for a Gold. It broke my heart. I was praying so hard that they could at least get a Gold. I thought they needed that boost of encouragement. Or perhaps it was not meant to be. I thought I saw a glimpse of hope that they would get Gold. Or perhaps it was my illusion. I thought I saw the light shinning in them. Or perhaps it was the spotlight.

A Breather

Finally, I made some time yesterday to go out and relax. We caught a movie and did a little shopping at Vivo. I haven't had any time off for quite some time already. Work has tied me down and I am always worried about my pupils. Yesterday, as we were buying some queh tutu from the uncle running the push-cart at Vivo, I noticed how serious he took his work. That tranquility amidst his professionalism was so amazing that it took my breath away for a moment. Amidst my workaholic lifestyle, I have failed to notice such beauty that God has created. At that moment, there was a mix of emotions of joy, peace and guilt. But I give thanks to God for helping me take a break and see the good around me.

Enlightenment???

Today, A came to me and said that he will turn over a new leaf. I was shocked. Initially, I dreaded the thought of talking to him because I really cannot stand his attitude and behaviour. I really wonder what he was thinking of. Was it because I scolded him so fiercely that he got scared? Or is it because he suffered the pain in his eyes and he could not take it?

A is someone who is very bad-tempered but very smart and intelligent. Other than that, I think he is a good boy. But I guess, one bad trait/characteristic is enough to make us judge a person negatively. I always tell myself not to judge people, but inevitably, I do that.

What Alvin has done has shocked me but it has also brought some warmth to my heart knowing that at least he is aware of his own actions and behaviour.

Dear Lord,

Thank you once again for the grace of showing me the positive side of man. Thank you for speaking to me in many different ways. Thank you for helping A. Please continue to guide him and teach him. As for the other pupils in my class, please continue to guide them and help them develop their own potential in ways possible. And Lord, please make me an instrument of your peace and glory. Teach me to act in ways which bring glory to your name for it is You who has saved us and redeemed us.

In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit, Amen.