A new perspective

It was Nic and Shirley's wedding on Sat. I was honoured as they involved me in the wedding preparations as one of Shirley's "sisters" on that day. Early in the morning, I went over to Shirley's place and we got ready to "battle" it out with the groom's entourage. It was "violent" as they tried to tear down the door to get the bride. As usual, the blur me helped out in whichever ways I could.

As they went through the rituals, I felt waves of emotions in me. Emotions of happiness, bliss, joy, love and appreciation. Both of them do not belong to the high-income strata in Singapore. They are simply ordinary singaporeans leading a contented life with what they have. Such simplicity is evident in the way they organised and made their wedding day as special as they possibly could.

However, I think, what really made me cry was how supportive their family members and friends were. The atmosphere was so right during the wedding dinner because all of us played our part in creating the joy and fun. Friends helped out with all the logistics and administrative details while family members respected the couple and behaved appropriately. All of us were so happy for them. The perfect couple on the road to bliss and happiness.

I guess, the most important thing and the dearest thought I had was that I was included in spite of the "awkard" situation I am in. Shirley took me in as a sister. She gladly accepted me with open arms. I never really felt accepted by my family all these years. And here comes a sister who is concerned about me and takes me in under her wing. I felt loved. It was a miracle. Within such a short period of time, I had found myself a sister. Someone I look up to and respect. Someone I am happy to share memories with. After so many years of being the eldest, I finally have someone to look up to. I am really happy. This thought brings tears of joy immediately.

Shirley looked like a princess and Nic looked like a prince charming. It was the perfect picture. I feel so happy for them...

It was a tiring day. But, it was all worth it. The love that I felt, the acceptance etc.

Dear Lord,

Thank you for the experience. I am still trying to construct my perspective of wedding dinners, and that has indeed brought new ideas which I am trying to understand. Please bless Nic and Shirley with a happy and blissful life ahead. They are very kind people and I hope that they will build a very happy family in the days to come.

Thank you once again, Lord.

In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit, Amen.

A new start

The new term has started. And I have settled down in my new home, a place where I feel comfortable and safe. On top of my responsibilities as a home owner and a trainee teacher, I have also started giving tuition to a girl and signed up for classes to explore my spiritual side. It seems like everything is off to a good start. I have taken the first steps. Now it is all up to my efforts and God's will as to how things will turn out.

I have to keep this short today, as I have to get back to my readings. All I can think of is that my time is now well-spent and I feel alive!!! Tuition may be tiring, but knowing that I can be of help to someone makes me feel good.

Okie...write more soon....

Thank you Lord!

In which ways am I special?

Influence from western media has given me the message that each of us is special. God made us different from one another for a reason. And perhaps that makes us special.

I think about myself. In which ways am I special? I still cannot find the answer. Perhaps, we should start with the definition of the word 'special'. What does it mean?

Basically, it simply means 'distinct'. Am I distinct in any way? Height? Looks? My behaviour? Or is there something deeper within me that I have not discovered or noticed? I still find myself ordinary, not distinct.

I should try to find a mirror. That way, I may see myself better.